for any of u who arent very involved in my life and dont know why i… - im so glad to have known someone it was so hard to say goodbye to
for any of u who arent very involved in my life and dont know why i havent posted in almost two weeks, this is why: about two weeks ago i decided to have a little party at my house and decided to invite a bunch of guys and crap, and of course my parents were up stairs, but they werent there... so they had my little brother spy on my from outside yeah i had no idea at the time. so i went in the garage and got one of my dads beers and was drinking it and ha of course my brother went and told my parents, cuz he doesnt have a life of his own and wants to ruin mine. so thats what happened, and i got grouned for two weeks and now i am almost done with my sentence.. lol
but life has been shitty lately, i have felt really alone and like no one really cares to know what is goin on in my mind. ive been doing hair and make-up for the wizard of oz play at school, and it has been soo much fun(besides the sleep deprovation).
ha wow a bunch of black girls (not to be rasist) want (or expressed) that they want beat me up. it brings back so many bad feelings about 8th grade and getting jumped and having such a rough time fitting in. all i want is for people to like and respect me. is that too much to ask? am i that much of a bitch that people hate me that much?? cuz i dont think so...
also, guys are ass holes!! i really cant believe how guys treat girls at my school. i have absolutely no desire to date any of the fags at my school. argh, and i am so lonely and want to be loved that way and want to be held and kissed on my forehead... sigh, i need to stop fantisizing.
but yeah, that has been my life in a nut shell for a week.
came home and cried my eyes out last night and that made me feel better
Current Mood: bleh
Current Music: the postal service
|Date:||April 29th, 2005 06:44 pm (UTC)|| |
BITCH! u dont no who these black girls r that u is fuckin wit yo, keep talkin dat shit u b talkin n well beat yo ass so fast it will make yo damn ugly head spin!! thas right gurl u fuckin straight ugly.. thas y we dont like u n thas y u gunna get yo ass beat if u keep fuckin wit us.. okayyy? okay! bitch please, n if i EVA see u write the term nigga on yo stupid ass diary again.. we wont beat yo ass well kill it okaayy! peace n stay away from big hitter.
|Date:||April 30th, 2005 04:34 pm (UTC)|| |
Yeah, I'm not really surprised that a nigger can't spell correctly. Lets see if I can help out the little kinky-top jiggaboo. I'll just cross out every spelling and grammatical error. Let’s see here...</br></br>BITCH!
u dont no who these black girls r that u is fuckin wit yo, keep talkin dat shit u b talkin n well beat yo ass so fast it will make yo damn ugly head spin!! thas right gurl u fuckin straight ugly.. thas y we dont like u n thas y u gunna get yo ass beat if u keep fuckin wit us.. okayyy? okay! bitch please, n if i EVA see u write the term nigga on yo stupid ass diary again.. we wont beat yo ass well kill it okaayy! peace nstay away from big hitter.</br></br>Well, you blacks really can't even put together a paragraph of analytical thought without slang. There is even a spell check option. Jesus Christ. Stop wasting the white people's tax money on school, you are a lost cause. All you are good for is picking cotton. Fuck the pendulum theory and fuck the NAACP. I suggest ignoring this girl; she has some very important patrons watching over her.
|Date:||May 2nd, 2005 05:37 pm (UTC)|| |
Hey Alicia...I'm not a dick, am I? Well I may have been, but whatever. I mostly came on her to say to the black girls that they need to fuck off. Seriously...learn to fucking spell you apes. You have a fucking 2nd grade education. Stop wasting my air, just die. What is worse about you being impeccably gay (Betcha don't know what that word means), Is that you are too scared to leave your fucking name next your threat. Don't be a dyke, and pull the stick out of your vagina. Leave Alie alone. Allie, your a great girl, don't be so sad all the time, high school sucks, but you live about mm....60-80 years after it? Don't fret.
- Flux (The Band Man)
"thas right gurl u fuckin straight ugly.. thas y we dont like u"
Ok, despite the horrib grammar, I got fromt hat,t hat you dont like alicia b/c shes "ugly" if you knew her at all, she's the most beautiful girl inside and out. Get the fuck over yourself.
dude just forget all of the stupid high school drama stuff. yeah the guys in our school do suck. they're all cocky assholes. i love you so much!
|Date:||April 30th, 2005 04:12 pm (UTC)|| |
well that explains it. dont drink to be cool.
haha yeah it makes me think of that night at ur house... hmm very interesting times
|Date:||May 1st, 2005 09:28 am (UTC)|| |
jesus christ... yeah, memories.
u were such a jerk that night as i recall... u were in my dream last night it was kinda odd..
|Date:||May 2nd, 2005 05:24 pm (UTC)|| |
wierd. how come you dont make a myspace? they are sweeping the country, and are more fun than this little white page. anyways, thats wierd, i had a dream last night about nothing turning out the way it should in the end, just in general, no specific, individual, cases. it was just a weird feeling the whole night. i cant even recall that i was asleep. it was a unique night.